Nobody will understand how I feel

Long time never write blog here....
Yesterday I really very hurt and sad. It happens when I ask my aunt kids(Ben)what does the black mole under the eyes area stands for?
My aunt reply says:"Bec stands for cry, she say they cry bec of tough life - hard work", than i reply to her,I also cry at times. she mentioned, I cried bec I only love myself more, not bec of hard work to earn for family than cry..

I heard le, heart so pain and hurt. If I love myself more than I would not look after the kids already, I really will Just DONT CARE. Nobody really understand and appreciate the things I do, is like is my job to look after?

Eventually, they will think that we 3 also stay at aunt hse to let them to take care of us. It makes them more burden with 6 kids...

I realise that, is not easy to stay at other's apartment... different character, different lifestyle.

But I really appreciate my aunt and uncle take good care of us for this 2 years plus... They treat us good, is just that sometimes when they talk, they are very straight forward and hurt people.... haha!

Is ok... is part of life.... I think I'm than the one is the most suffer person ba!
Hope after this period, my life be better!

I had already go thru the stages of losing my mum(passed away) suddenly knock out without any illness, losing love ones, staying aunt hse for 2 years- is not easy....
I believe in future nothing can defeat me...(in life)

Hope I can be stronger and stronger!
I always think that, what others say me, i dun mind.... Mouth is theirs, and i believe 吃亏就是赚！Is my aunt told me... I think is quite true.... In fact, can learn more things.

Nothing is fair, everything is unfair, somebody born to be pretty, somebody born to be not so outstanding like me! But I believe inner beauty is the most beauty...