Fed Up of my life!

My friend dun understand me at all. My father had already bring over the eldest kids to stay at my house. Stay for few days liao and going back to batam soon. My friend say is my fault not moving back that’s y he lonely than he bring over his kids. You dun wan to move back your fault u make ur father lonely so he bring back the kid, he wan somebody to look after him, what wrong he do. You have fault too, u move out so long did u pay him a visit ma, yes he did wrong in the past but he still ur father. You think he not lonely ma. You think he dun wan u all move back ma? He say dun complain much, he have the rights to give his kid a good life, since u dun wan him, he bring other side kid to live with him. He say my mum never say anything... y we kids make so much noise. I say please, we kids are the most suffer, if dad do wrong never apologies and never amend his way. I say can u guarantee that my mum never say anything ma, can u guarantee that if we move back home, he never bring over his batam kids and family ma. u dun understand how I feel. You stand at my father position to see things, did u stand at my side/brothers side to see things. Yes although things had pass. Can u guarantee he will not bring over the batam kid if we move back home? If u can guarantee than I move back today. My mum dun have sense of secure before, my mum suffer so much u know. You dun know. my dad only lonely for 2 years than he already cant take it.... my mum suffer for 20 to 30 years. How can u say. Are u going to think for my father than think for me? We children are the one tat is wu gu无辜, need to move to aunt house etc. Although aunt treat us good/well but afterall that is not our house. Bec of dad mistake he had done, just bec father temper. my dad never admit his fault/wrong, this is not a small problem. But if a person done wrong, he or she have to apologize and if he never amend his way than we kids suffer the most. Nobody know my worries I need a man that can truly understand me and need to know what am I worrying about. Get things right, is not we dun wan him. is he dun wan us. If he wan us, he will apologies for what he had done and will not chase us out of the house and dun give my 2 brothers expenses for 6 months that we need to go to family court to seek for the expenses for my 2 brothers and he will not change the lock at home. Can u guarantee we are safe staying at home? He do things never spare a thought for us, wan to bring them back than bring. Now we had no mother, also like no father even father still alive, my family become so complicated – Thanks to dad! You know what, u know nothing, u just know that what past is past but u got think same things will happen ma? Haiz.... Why am i so unlucky for everything I had ...