My Worries.......My Stress...

Few days ago, my youngest brother told me he wanted to move back own house to stay.... Me and my other brother was not shocked at all, bec on and off he mentioned that.

He told me he tell my aunt straight away that he wanted to move back home this few days, I ask him not to tell aunt first. As me and brother-JH was still discussing about moving back home too. My youngest brother told me, he want to move back own house because he dun wan people to say him, he just want the freedom even right or wrong, he dont wan to care.... same character as father... This brother really hard to teach, as we 3 stay at aunt house already 2 years liao.

He already make US worry alot...... he did not obidient, sometimes when holiday period he use computer till morning 5am, 6am, the worst is he off computer at morning 6.30am, he go lay on bed, he told me he cant get to sleep, than after i go to work at 7.30am, he wake up again to on his laptop again... continue play until 8.30am he went to see a doctor as he injured himself at the work place(2nd day of work）， but the clicnic beside my aunt blk are closed. So he went back home to play, he play until 10 plus to 11 than go fajar shopping center to see doctor..... I pay for the medical expenses. After back from seeing a doctor, he continue to play games till midnight 2 or 3am, scary, overbroad, as my uncle n aunt set home rule, before 12am must off computer liao. My brother dont wan to care, than my uncle go and complain to my aunt, my aunt come and tell me, i also stress. I tell my brother sleep early, he say shut up and ask me go sleep. Hard to teach, rebellent child. dont know when than he grown up and maybe when i passed away than he will grown up ba... sometimes my heartbeat fast and sometimes i realise hard to breathe.... dont know what happen to me! Too much stress... I need to take up responsibilities.... Every friday, saturday and sunday my aunt working, my uncle go bet horse, so i had to look after their 3 kids, the eldest already sec 1, 2nd one is primary 6 and the youngest primary 2. Sometimes is hard for them to listen to me, I got to ask them bathe, after i buy back lunch for them to eat, i ask them to eat, they told me not hungry, they say later, so i let them eat later, than my uncle called and ask them eat already or not, i told him that they say not hungry, so he sounds angry, ask me to give them eat. Haiz.... Like i never ask them eat like that....and i had to make sure they bathe, than i can wash the clothes, i need to hang the clothes and fold the clothes.... sometimes need to sweep and mop the floor, sometimes is really stress. Everything happens after my mum passed away... haiz... Im tired too, what i trying to say is I need to work from Mon to Saturday, weekdays and weekends sometimes need ot also.. very tiring le... just hope weekends can rest well or do own things... but i really dont have enough time to relax, to do the things that i wanted to do, or is it my life is like that. destiny ar?

Many people say that 相见容易，相处难！This words sounds true, as every people have different lifestyle.... habits also different.. My aunt and uncle treat us good.... i know that we 3 stay at aunt house for 2 years, my uncle and aunt burden increase... So now i feel bad, sometimes they because of us quarrel... actualli i dun mind my brother use computer after 12am, is their home rule... and i know that my brother sure will not obey long de... so he move back home might not be a bad things, i n my other brother intend to move back home too..... Because we 3 麻烦阿姨和姨丈了！Is time to grown up and find own things to do! Afterall they can be one happy family again! I dun wish or dont hope because of us, affect aunt n uncle relationships, not good wor! Just hope that if me n my brother-JH intend to move back, nothing happen to us, and my 2 aunts and uncle will not blame us and still in good terms! Bec afterall stay at own hse is better.... not mean comfortable, is just that no need stress to how and what to say to uncle or aunt..... as im not good in talking, sometimes will lead misunderstanding. I dun wan that to happened.. I know even we moved back, i also can't control JK muCH.. But that's the only choice!

I need advise from you guys, Thanks! What I should do?