Nanny @ Home days....

Im sick and tired coz even when my working days, plus half work half study, before exam or what. i also need to look after my aunt kids, it becomes my responsibilities. Starting I feel is ok, becasue is kind of learning process, and experiences in how to look after kids, and also will think that looking after a kid nowadays is not easy. I am stressed about this matter for quite long le... Don't know what should I do? Move back home or continue looking after 3 kids(im become their nanny)

They not automatic to go bathe and eat their lunch.

Normally every Fri, if Im available->even i need ot, i also never ot..... scarifie so big u see.... Well, I will go Yew Tee buy their dinner, than rush to fetch my cousin-carina from sch @ 6.30pm. Than bring her home,--> ask them to bathe-->hard to move also.... ask them to eat--> hard to move also..... because if they never bathe, i can't wash clothes and hang it.... if they never eat, I can't finished my task, which is wash bowl and plates etc.... I have to fold clothes too....


As for Saturday and Sunday, luckily nowadays my aunt some sat and sunday never work.. Not all 3 days she work for every week.. So when my aunt never work that day, I will be going out to relax.... For Saturday, my task is wake up in morning around 9 or 10 plus see got breakfast or not... If don't have, than I go fajar shopping center to buy breakfast, sometimes lazy or not free to walk 2 times, I buy lunch straight away. If not lunch time come out and buy their lunch again.
When I bUY back either breakfast or lunch or both.... I ask them eat, they will faster go eat when their parents are around, scare being beat ma....Than when their parents go out le, than they start to not obidient.... Haiz... ASK THEM bathe from 11 to 12plus, they can say wait wait wait, drag until 4 to 5 plus... than I will be late wash clothes.... Lunch sometimes they eat very late late 2 to 3 plus.... their meal are disorder... So angry bec if they 3 havent eat--> I can't clear and wash the bowl and plates on the basin..... clean the table etc..... If they 3 havent bathe, I can't put the clothes to washing machine to start spinning etc... Than my own things no need to do le... Thinking of every time like this, my life are so boring.... and feel so sleepy, life so meaningless... Not bec I don't or not willing to look after... Seriously I like their 3 kids too.. I dotw on them too, will help them celebrate their birthday, give them treats too, include my aunt and uncle.

I dun mind all this, the most difficult and miserable thing is that their kids not still kids, they can auto go and bathe, auto eat during every meal... Sometimes I ask them to eat, the 2 guys will ask me shut up and go away. Say i'm disguisting or saying i nagging.... Ya, I may keep repeating the words i say, go eat go eat, if never eat I call ur dad... I had no choice to say that..... I got my own things to do, sometimes I really feel that weekdays work work work ot ot ot, only weekends can relax.... But for me weekends is my nightmare.. is not i not willing to look after. Is just that this is not my responsibilities to teach their kids to shut down computer etc.... If they willing to listen to me, I dun mind, they are n\big enough.. I don't think I have the energy to keep repeating the things that I say..

Sometimes really makes me fed up.... headache..... even fri, sat and sunday I dun have my free time.... I can help to look after but at least appreciate what I done.. But my uncle don't seems to appreciate... My aunt work, is my uncle responsible to look after their own kids...

I don wanna and hate that if their kids not behave well or results drop blame on us never teach them good, only teach them bad....

Ya. Although we 3 , my both parents never taught us about life process and meaning of life... Do or dont etc... but at least we don't blame our parents for not teaching us good. ACTUALLy, partly good or bad also influence by friends etc.... we really can't predict what will happen the next day or even the next second or next minute. Nobody knows...

I feel stress to look after them is because the 2 boys playing computer, sometimes not happy will fight and scold vulgar-backwords to one another, until both fights, one time both take knife... That's my fear and worries... I can't afford to be responsible if anything happens to them...

I can help to look after for a period of time but not every fri, sat n sunday continue for few years.... And i really cannot fully concentrade, even at night sleep i will think of this fri, sat and sun need to look after kids, headache, coz they not follow my instructon, and their father so relax go turf club bet horse.... so enjoy.. I no obligations that to stop him relax, enjoy... Everybody need to relief their stress after weekdays work......but he should think of hire a maid ba!

I'm still young, I don't want to been tight down by kids kids kids.... If is my own kids, I of coure have to look after myself.....

I really need to stop all this, because I intend to fully concentrade on my work, my studies(intend to study ACCA) SO MUST concentrade... The time spend really not little as what u all think.. Is not so easy.. time consuming... I can't study if my mind is not there.. Is kind of stress stress stress..


What Shall I do? God?

Going home soon in 25 mins later.... Bye Bye!



Life so boring and meaningless for irene!