许愿者: 女儿，瑷菱
特别送给: 妈妈，林秀莲
许愿内容 : 想念我在天堂敬爱的妈妈！我的泪不停的流！妈妈我好想你，爱你！要永远记得我！
请你不要放弃，妈妈！ 我们永远记得你! 我们都好挂念你。
希望你在“极乐世界”过的很好，希望找到一个好男人！你受的苦，已经太多太多了。
希望你能够有所回报！
好想念你~ 好想看到你~ 不管爸爸怎样该，还是换不会你的命。
虽然人要往前看，但是还没来得及做她孝顺的女儿。 好多东西还没跟妈妈学，
她煮的耶浆饭（Ｎａｓｉ－Ｌｅｍａｋ），炸酱面，芋尼圈（ＹａｍＲｉｎｇ），炒米粉，鸡饭，
叉烧烧肉饭， 绿豆汤，红豆汤，莲藕汤，玉蜀黍汤，ＡＢＣ汤，炒伊面， 鸡蛋面，
酿豆腐， 垃圾桶菜（ｃａｒｒｏｔ ｐｌｕｓ ｃａｂｂａｇｅ）ＬＯＬ，炒果条，炒萝卜糕， ｌａｋｓａ，
ｃｕｒｒｙ， ｓｗｅｅｔ ｐｏｔａｔｏ ｓｏｕｐ， ｐｏｒｒｉｄｇｅ， ｅｇｇ ｃｏｖｅｒ ｍｉｎｃｅｄ ｍｅａｔ，
ｐｏｒｋ ｃｈｏｐ， ｓｗｅｅｔ ＆ ｓｏｕｒ ｐｏｒｋ， ｃｅｒｅａｌ ｐｒａｗｎ， ｂａｋ ｋｕｅ ｔｅｈ， ｃｒａｂ，
ｋａｎｇ ｋｏｎｇ， ｓｐａｇｅｔｔｉ， ｗａｎｔｏｎ ｎｏｏｄｌｅ， ｆｒｉｅｄ ｒｉｃｅ， ｌａｌａ ｗｉｔｈ ｃｈｉｌｌｉ，
ｆｒｉｅｄ ｈｏｋｋｉｅｎ ｐｒａｗｎ ｎｏｏｄｌｅ， ｄｕｍｐｌｉｎｇｓ（肉棕）， 罗米饭，
ＣＮＹ ｃｏｏｋｉｅｓ －ｌｏｖｅ ｌｅｔｔｅｒｓ， ｃｏｏｋｉｅｓ（ｂｅｅ ｈｏｌｅ），
ｓｍａｌｌ ｓｐｒｉｎｇ ｒｏｌｌ ｗｉｔｈ ｂａ ｈｕ．
Ａｎｄ ｍａｎｙ ｍａｎｙ ｍｏｒｅ， ｇｏｔ ｔｉｍｅ ｔｈａｎ ｗｒｉｔｅ ｏｕｔ ａｌｌ． ｔｏ ｂｅ ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅｄ．．．．．
妈妈我爱你！！！ ：）
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Nanny @ Home days....
Im sick and tired coz even when my working days, plus half work half study, before exam or what. i also need to look after my aunt kids, it becomes my responsibilities. Starting I feel is ok, becasue is kind of learning process, and experiences in how to look after kids, and also will think that looking after a kid nowadays is not easy. I am stressed about this matter for quite long le... Don't know what should I do? Move back home or continue looking after 3 kids(im become their nanny)
They not automatic to go bathe and eat their lunch.
Normally every Fri, if Im available->even i need ot, i also never ot..... scarifie so big u see.... Well, I will go Yew Tee buy their dinner, than rush to fetch my cousin-carina from sch @ 6.30pm. Than bring her home,--> ask them to bathe-->hard to move also.... ask them to eat--> hard to move also..... because if they never bathe, i can't wash clothes and hang it.... if they never eat, I can't finished my task, which is wash bowl and plates etc.... I have to fold clothes too....
As for Saturday and Sunday, luckily nowadays my aunt some sat and sunday never work.. Not all 3 days she work for every week.. So when my aunt never work that day, I will be going out to relax.... For Saturday, my task is wake up in morning around 9 or 10 plus see got breakfast or not... If don't have, than I go fajar shopping center to buy breakfast, sometimes lazy or not free to walk 2 times, I buy lunch straight away. If not lunch time come out and buy their lunch again.
When I bUY back either breakfast or lunch or both.... I ask them eat, they will faster go eat when their parents are around, scare being beat ma....Than when their parents go out le, than they start to not obidient.... Haiz... ASK THEM bathe from 11 to 12plus, they can say wait wait wait, drag until 4 to 5 plus... than I will be late wash clothes.... Lunch sometimes they eat very late late 2 to 3 plus.... their meal are disorder... So angry bec if they 3 havent eat--> I can't clear and wash the bowl and plates on the basin..... clean the table etc..... If they 3 havent bathe, I can't put the clothes to washing machine to start spinning etc... Than my own things no need to do le... Thinking of every time like this, my life are so boring.... and feel so sleepy, life so meaningless... Not bec I don't or not willing to look after... Seriously I like their 3 kids too.. I dotw on them too, will help them celebrate their birthday, give them treats too, include my aunt and uncle.
I dun mind all this, the most difficult and miserable thing is that their kids not still kids, they can auto go and bathe, auto eat during every meal... Sometimes I ask them to eat, the 2 guys will ask me shut up and go away. Say i'm disguisting or saying i nagging.... Ya, I may keep repeating the words i say, go eat go eat, if never eat I call ur dad... I had no choice to say that..... I got my own things to do, sometimes I really feel that weekdays work work work ot ot ot, only weekends can relax.... But for me weekends is my nightmare.. is not i not willing to look after. Is just that this is not my responsibilities to teach their kids to shut down computer etc.... If they willing to listen to me, I dun mind, they are n\big enough.. I don't think I have the energy to keep repeating the things that I say..
Sometimes really makes me fed up.... headache..... even fri, sat and sunday I dun have my free time.... I can help to look after but at least appreciate what I done.. But my uncle don't seems to appreciate... My aunt work, is my uncle responsible to look after their own kids...
I don wanna and hate that if their kids not behave well or results drop blame on us never teach them good, only teach them bad....
Ya. Although we 3 , my both parents never taught us about life process and meaning of life... Do or dont etc... but at least we don't blame our parents for not teaching us good. ACTUALLy, partly good or bad also influence by friends etc.... we really can't predict what will happen the next day or even the next second or next minute. Nobody knows...
I feel stress to look after them is because the 2 boys playing computer, sometimes not happy will fight and scold vulgar-backwords to one another, until both fights, one time both take knife... That's my fear and worries... I can't afford to be responsible if anything happens to them...
I can help to look after for a period of time but not every fri, sat n sunday continue for few years.... And i really cannot fully concentrade, even at night sleep i will think of this fri, sat and sun need to look after kids, headache, coz they not follow my instructon, and their father so relax go turf club bet horse.... so enjoy.. I no obligations that to stop him relax, enjoy... Everybody need to relief their stress after weekdays work......but he should think of hire a maid ba!
I'm still young, I don't want to been tight down by kids kids kids.... If is my own kids, I of coure have to look after myself.....
I really need to stop all this, because I intend to fully concentrade on my work, my studies(intend to study ACCA) SO MUST concentrade... The time spend really not little as what u all think.. Is not so easy.. time consuming... I can't study if my mind is not there.. Is kind of stress stress stress..
What Shall I do? God?
Going home soon in 25 mins later.... Bye Bye!
Life so boring and meaningless for irene!
They not automatic to go bathe and eat their lunch.
Normally every Fri, if Im available->even i need ot, i also never ot..... scarifie so big u see.... Well, I will go Yew Tee buy their dinner, than rush to fetch my cousin-carina from sch @ 6.30pm. Than bring her home,--> ask them to bathe-->hard to move also.... ask them to eat--> hard to move also..... because if they never bathe, i can't wash clothes and hang it.... if they never eat, I can't finished my task, which is wash bowl and plates etc.... I have to fold clothes too....
As for Saturday and Sunday, luckily nowadays my aunt some sat and sunday never work.. Not all 3 days she work for every week.. So when my aunt never work that day, I will be going out to relax.... For Saturday, my task is wake up in morning around 9 or 10 plus see got breakfast or not... If don't have, than I go fajar shopping center to buy breakfast, sometimes lazy or not free to walk 2 times, I buy lunch straight away. If not lunch time come out and buy their lunch again.
When I bUY back either breakfast or lunch or both.... I ask them eat, they will faster go eat when their parents are around, scare being beat ma....Than when their parents go out le, than they start to not obidient.... Haiz... ASK THEM bathe from 11 to 12plus, they can say wait wait wait, drag until 4 to 5 plus... than I will be late wash clothes.... Lunch sometimes they eat very late late 2 to 3 plus.... their meal are disorder... So angry bec if they 3 havent eat--> I can't clear and wash the bowl and plates on the basin..... clean the table etc..... If they 3 havent bathe, I can't put the clothes to washing machine to start spinning etc... Than my own things no need to do le... Thinking of every time like this, my life are so boring.... and feel so sleepy, life so meaningless... Not bec I don't or not willing to look after... Seriously I like their 3 kids too.. I dotw on them too, will help them celebrate their birthday, give them treats too, include my aunt and uncle.
I dun mind all this, the most difficult and miserable thing is that their kids not still kids, they can auto go and bathe, auto eat during every meal... Sometimes I ask them to eat, the 2 guys will ask me shut up and go away. Say i'm disguisting or saying i nagging.... Ya, I may keep repeating the words i say, go eat go eat, if never eat I call ur dad... I had no choice to say that..... I got my own things to do, sometimes I really feel that weekdays work work work ot ot ot, only weekends can relax.... But for me weekends is my nightmare.. is not i not willing to look after. Is just that this is not my responsibilities to teach their kids to shut down computer etc.... If they willing to listen to me, I dun mind, they are n\big enough.. I don't think I have the energy to keep repeating the things that I say..
Sometimes really makes me fed up.... headache..... even fri, sat and sunday I dun have my free time.... I can help to look after but at least appreciate what I done.. But my uncle don't seems to appreciate... My aunt work, is my uncle responsible to look after their own kids...
I don wanna and hate that if their kids not behave well or results drop blame on us never teach them good, only teach them bad....
Ya. Although we 3 , my both parents never taught us about life process and meaning of life... Do or dont etc... but at least we don't blame our parents for not teaching us good. ACTUALLy, partly good or bad also influence by friends etc.... we really can't predict what will happen the next day or even the next second or next minute. Nobody knows...
I feel stress to look after them is because the 2 boys playing computer, sometimes not happy will fight and scold vulgar-backwords to one another, until both fights, one time both take knife... That's my fear and worries... I can't afford to be responsible if anything happens to them...
I can help to look after for a period of time but not every fri, sat n sunday continue for few years.... And i really cannot fully concentrade, even at night sleep i will think of this fri, sat and sun need to look after kids, headache, coz they not follow my instructon, and their father so relax go turf club bet horse.... so enjoy.. I no obligations that to stop him relax, enjoy... Everybody need to relief their stress after weekdays work......but he should think of hire a maid ba!
I'm still young, I don't want to been tight down by kids kids kids.... If is my own kids, I of coure have to look after myself.....
I really need to stop all this, because I intend to fully concentrade on my work, my studies(intend to study ACCA) SO MUST concentrade... The time spend really not little as what u all think.. Is not so easy.. time consuming... I can't study if my mind is not there.. Is kind of stress stress stress..
What Shall I do? God?
Going home soon in 25 mins later.... Bye Bye!
Life so boring and meaningless for irene!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Planning for the free time during short break
As my last day @ G & W will be on 22 September 2010. My new starting phase of career plus new working environment starts on 4th October 2010... Very excited, and looking forward to that day, hope everything really go smooth for me! Colleagues and boss there friendly, caring ba! I can say I'm not a fast learner, need them to guide me along and please give me patience if I had done anything mistake... Kindly to seek for your forgiveness and willing to change...
Meanwhile, during this 23 September - 3 October 2010(less than 2 weeks) a short break!
I need to planned my time... erm... Intend to go for Lee wei song school of music @ PICO building - lavendar! Studio recording in a CD album..... I'm looking forward thou....
Hope really every thing well smoothly for me!
Give me courage and let me have the confidence to sing infront of many many people so that I am happy. At least I pass my own stage.... Mum know le, also will be happy...
During this period, I would really need to relax and destress myself before starting a new job....
Where can I go? What can I do? No. Dont ask me to look after kids thou. Haha......
Meanwhile, during this 23 September - 3 October 2010(less than 2 weeks) a short break!
I need to planned my time... erm... Intend to go for Lee wei song school of music @ PICO building - lavendar! Studio recording in a CD album..... I'm looking forward thou....
Hope really every thing well smoothly for me!
Give me courage and let me have the confidence to sing infront of many many people so that I am happy. At least I pass my own stage.... Mum know le, also will be happy...
During this period, I would really need to relax and destress myself before starting a new job....
Where can I go? What can I do? No. Dont ask me to look after kids thou. Haha......
Ｂａｃｋ ｆｒｏｍ ｌｕｎｃｈ
Back from lunch, feeling very tired and sleepy right now! ZzZzzZz
Actually, before my mum passed away, she keep hinting us that she is not happy with her marriage..... She ask me cannot find a future husband that have wifes de. 千万不可以找有老婆的男人！
那时我只听而已！根本不明白她的意思！现在我才了解她的意思。可是太迟了，我的妈妈有告诉她的好朋友：“等我们三个二十一岁就会跟爸爸离婚”。 那时我刚过二十一岁！最小的弟弟才十五岁，第二弟弟十八岁！ 我们真的已到崩溃的日子，好伤心，痛苦。
有一首歌，歌词很有意思。
世上只有妈妈好！
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝。
投进妈妈的怀抱， 幸福享不了
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝。
投进妈妈的怀抱， 幸福享不了
没有妈妈最苦恼， 没妈的孩子像根草。
离开妈妈的怀抱， 幸福哪里找
没有妈妈最苦恼， 没妈的孩子像根草。
离开妈妈的怀抱， 幸福哪里找
Ｓｏ ｉｓ ｔｒｕｅ！ ：(
I have this feeling already!
Actually, before my mum passed away, she keep hinting us that she is not happy with her marriage..... She ask me cannot find a future husband that have wifes de. 千万不可以找有老婆的男人！
那时我只听而已！根本不明白她的意思！现在我才了解她的意思。可是太迟了，我的妈妈有告诉她的好朋友：“等我们三个二十一岁就会跟爸爸离婚”。 那时我刚过二十一岁！最小的弟弟才十五岁，第二弟弟十八岁！ 我们真的已到崩溃的日子，好伤心，痛苦。
有一首歌，歌词很有意思。
世上只有妈妈好！
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝。
投进妈妈的怀抱， 幸福享不了
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝。
投进妈妈的怀抱， 幸福享不了
没有妈妈最苦恼， 没妈的孩子像根草。
离开妈妈的怀抱， 幸福哪里找
没有妈妈最苦恼， 没妈的孩子像根草。
离开妈妈的怀抱， 幸福哪里找
Ｓｏ ｉｓ ｔｒｕｅ！ ：(
I have this feeling already!
Missing MUM badly
I miss my mum badly, but I can feel my mum always beside me, I almost every week dream of her, but sometimes wake up cant't remember what I dreamt of ?
This morning, my cousin mum(my gugu) call me, his only son married on 3 Oct 2010 held at Fullerton Hotel ballroom. Is really grand....... She invited us go to his buffet lunch at her house. She wanted us to go together with my father. She told us to give her face, ask us must go. And she mentioned she dreamt of my mother 3 times, I ask her what she dream, she start to cry, she don't wish to tell me.. I was really curious what she dreamt of. She say my mum 交代something to her.
I was like suddenly feel like crying. Bec we kids should be the most suffer ba! And nobody know what our heart thinks？ Only know how to say just forget the past bad things my father do... But my father really until now dont realise is his fault u know. That makes us can't forgive him, because he didnt even want us to forgive him.
I intend to move back own house, currently me and my younger bro staying at my aunt house already for 2 years 3 months. Time flies, but I really missed my home.. My aunt and uncle treat us well too. But I feel own house is more warmth. Bec my mum is at home.... Bec of my stupid brain dad, makes things worst and complicated.
And become we got home also cant go back home.... Dad keep nagging, own fault than blame people.... Can't he feel abit shameful for himself and just keep quiet! I wanted to make clear things that is my father chase us out of the house than we move out.. That period everybody in our house very suffered... My dad nagged, than my work also cannot concentrade, everyday headache, keep think think think... And My mum passed away that period, I not myself, I dont believe, its so sudden. As I come back from working NTUC, I reach home at night 11 plus on 27 Jan 2008, Sunday. Chat with my mum awhile than I feel tired than sleep. I slept in same room, same bed with my mum. I believe my mum in the middle of the midnight around 1 or 2 plus knock off in the toilets... But I really never heard any noise, maybe I was too tired, that's y. She was not feeling well for the past 1 week.... i was so regret for not taking good care of her. Never bring her go see doctor and never care her.. I was really really so regret....:（
And if everytime i go genting, i so regret, I never go genting with my mother before. So will regret for not doing or going anywhere with her.. I will think of my mum more when the places i never go with my mum before. like also regret for not taking more photos with her....
I hope my mother will let me dream of her, tell me what she needs and wants, so that I will try to help her lessen her worries or troubles. To fulfil what she wants... I'm serious! I just hope my mum can leave better either in heaven or hell. I just want my mum to know I miss her badly, hope she can bless me and my 2 brothers everything go smooth and bless that father will know his mistake and not nag again.
The most important thing is if one day we 3 move back to own house, my father will not bring over the batam kids or mistress into our house.. Coz I will treat them transparent. That time don't blame me for doing nasty things on them.
I will treat it I never know and never aware of this issue.
That is the path my dad chose, so he had to bear the consequences. Not after my mum passed away than he find another wife/women. This is can't forgiveable. Ridiculous, stupid act he had done.... Mum suffered so many years.....太委屈妈妈了！我觉得妈妈比我想象中更坚强，更勇敢！我真的佩服她！还被爸爸唉骂！爸爸真的不知羞耻！ 为妈妈感到非常难过，伤心！
虽然爸爸有养家，那又怎样呢？ 他不尊敬我的妈妈！你们觉得，有养家就好，那你们想想，换成是你们的老公，你们会开心的过日子吗？ 没办法！
爸爸的情况不是在外面偷吃！这可是他们还没结婚就开始了！为何爸爸不能在两个女人中选一个呢？
搞到事情这么复杂，搞到没有妈妈，是我们孩子最难过，最无辜的。
ｂａｔａｍ 的女人是会做疆头，我觉得妈妈的死，就是那女的做的！ 我真的希望有因果报应！
老天爷，请你帮帮我！ 是不是那女人在搞怪！让老天爷处罚！
谢谢！
现在我只希望我妈妈会过的很好，希望她找到对他好的男人！不要再受委屈了！
让妈妈每天都快快乐乐， 开开心心！ 希望她找到贵人相助！
好怀念我的母亲，怀念和她在一起的日子！ 辛苦她了！这么多年的照顾，我还来不及孝顺她，她就走了！
以前妈妈几乎每天都下厨，我可以说她煮的晚餐天天都好吃，到没话说！她天天都有煮汤！好喝级了！
家务事都是妈妈一个人在做！抹地，洗衣，则衣，晾衣，煮，打扫，油气 等等。
最怀念的事，当我放工回家时，有时候，妈妈会帮我拔眉毛， 洗指甲油，涂指甲油－－－〉 太舒服了，到我睡着了！ 妈妈成经告诉我，你这样依赖我，那如果我死了，怎样办？ 那时，我还不明白她的意思！我真的够笨！嗨！
不说了，要吃饭了！
ｂｙｅ ｂｙｅ！
This morning, my cousin mum(my gugu) call me, his only son married on 3 Oct 2010 held at Fullerton Hotel ballroom. Is really grand....... She invited us go to his buffet lunch at her house. She wanted us to go together with my father. She told us to give her face, ask us must go. And she mentioned she dreamt of my mother 3 times, I ask her what she dream, she start to cry, she don't wish to tell me.. I was really curious what she dreamt of. She say my mum 交代something to her.
I was like suddenly feel like crying. Bec we kids should be the most suffer ba! And nobody know what our heart thinks？ Only know how to say just forget the past bad things my father do... But my father really until now dont realise is his fault u know. That makes us can't forgive him, because he didnt even want us to forgive him.
I intend to move back own house, currently me and my younger bro staying at my aunt house already for 2 years 3 months. Time flies, but I really missed my home.. My aunt and uncle treat us well too. But I feel own house is more warmth. Bec my mum is at home.... Bec of my stupid brain dad, makes things worst and complicated.
And become we got home also cant go back home.... Dad keep nagging, own fault than blame people.... Can't he feel abit shameful for himself and just keep quiet! I wanted to make clear things that is my father chase us out of the house than we move out.. That period everybody in our house very suffered... My dad nagged, than my work also cannot concentrade, everyday headache, keep think think think... And My mum passed away that period, I not myself, I dont believe, its so sudden. As I come back from working NTUC, I reach home at night 11 plus on 27 Jan 2008, Sunday. Chat with my mum awhile than I feel tired than sleep. I slept in same room, same bed with my mum. I believe my mum in the middle of the midnight around 1 or 2 plus knock off in the toilets... But I really never heard any noise, maybe I was too tired, that's y. She was not feeling well for the past 1 week.... i was so regret for not taking good care of her. Never bring her go see doctor and never care her.. I was really really so regret....:（
And if everytime i go genting, i so regret, I never go genting with my mother before. So will regret for not doing or going anywhere with her.. I will think of my mum more when the places i never go with my mum before. like also regret for not taking more photos with her....
I hope my mother will let me dream of her, tell me what she needs and wants, so that I will try to help her lessen her worries or troubles. To fulfil what she wants... I'm serious! I just hope my mum can leave better either in heaven or hell. I just want my mum to know I miss her badly, hope she can bless me and my 2 brothers everything go smooth and bless that father will know his mistake and not nag again.
The most important thing is if one day we 3 move back to own house, my father will not bring over the batam kids or mistress into our house.. Coz I will treat them transparent. That time don't blame me for doing nasty things on them.
I will treat it I never know and never aware of this issue.
That is the path my dad chose, so he had to bear the consequences. Not after my mum passed away than he find another wife/women. This is can't forgiveable. Ridiculous, stupid act he had done.... Mum suffered so many years.....太委屈妈妈了！我觉得妈妈比我想象中更坚强，更勇敢！我真的佩服她！还被爸爸唉骂！爸爸真的不知羞耻！ 为妈妈感到非常难过，伤心！
虽然爸爸有养家，那又怎样呢？ 他不尊敬我的妈妈！你们觉得，有养家就好，那你们想想，换成是你们的老公，你们会开心的过日子吗？ 没办法！
爸爸的情况不是在外面偷吃！这可是他们还没结婚就开始了！为何爸爸不能在两个女人中选一个呢？
搞到事情这么复杂，搞到没有妈妈，是我们孩子最难过，最无辜的。
ｂａｔａｍ 的女人是会做疆头，我觉得妈妈的死，就是那女的做的！ 我真的希望有因果报应！
老天爷，请你帮帮我！ 是不是那女人在搞怪！让老天爷处罚！
谢谢！
现在我只希望我妈妈会过的很好，希望她找到对他好的男人！不要再受委屈了！
让妈妈每天都快快乐乐， 开开心心！ 希望她找到贵人相助！
好怀念我的母亲，怀念和她在一起的日子！ 辛苦她了！这么多年的照顾，我还来不及孝顺她，她就走了！
以前妈妈几乎每天都下厨，我可以说她煮的晚餐天天都好吃，到没话说！她天天都有煮汤！好喝级了！
家务事都是妈妈一个人在做！抹地，洗衣，则衣，晾衣，煮，打扫，油气 等等。
最怀念的事，当我放工回家时，有时候，妈妈会帮我拔眉毛， 洗指甲油，涂指甲油－－－〉 太舒服了，到我睡着了！ 妈妈成经告诉我，你这样依赖我，那如果我死了，怎样办？ 那时，我还不明白她的意思！我真的够笨！嗨！
不说了，要吃饭了！
ｂｙｅ ｂｙｅ！
Quite True....
人生就是為了找尋愛的過程，
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.
首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。
你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？
沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。
當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？
愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。
真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。
畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。
兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!
明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。
你呢？找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你
每個人的人生都要找到四個人
第一個是自己,
第二個是你最愛的人，
第三個是最愛你的人，
第四個是共度一生的人.
首先會遇到你最愛的人，然後體會到愛的感覺；
因為了解被愛的感覺，所以才能發現最愛你的人；
當你經歷過愛人與被愛，學會了愛，才會知道什麼是你需要的，
也才會找到最適合你，能夠相處一輩子的人。
但很悲哀的，在現實生活中，這三個人通常不是同一個人；
你最愛的，往往沒有選擇你；
最愛你的，往往不是你最愛的；
而最長久的，偏偏不是你最愛也不是最愛你的，
只是在最適合的時間出現的那個人。
你，會是別人生命中的第幾個人呢？
沒有人是故意要變心的，他愛你的時候是真的愛你，
可是他不愛你的時候也是真的不愛你了，
他愛你的時候沒有辦法假裝不愛你；
同樣的，他不愛你的時候也沒有辦法假裝愛你 。
當一個人不愛你要離開你，
你要問自己還愛不愛他，
如果你也不愛他了，千萬別為了可憐的自尊而不肯離開；
如果你還愛他，你應該會希望他過得幸福快樂，
希望他跟真正愛的人在一起，絕不會阻止，
你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已經不愛他了，
而如果你不愛他，你又有什麼資格指責他變心呢？
愛不是佔有，
你喜歡月亮，不可能把月亮拿下來放在臉盆裡，
但月亮的光芒仍可照進你的房間。
換句話說，你愛一個人，也可以用另一種方式擁有，
讓愛人成為生命裡的永恆回憶，
如果你真愛一個人，就要愛他原來的樣子─愛他的好，也愛他的壞：
愛他的優點，也愛他的缺點，
絕不能因為愛他，就希望他變成自己所希望的樣子，
萬一變不成就不愛他了。
真正愛一個人是無法說出原因的，
你只知道無論何時何地、心情好壞，你都希望這個人陪著你；
真正的感情是兩人能在最艱苦中相守，也就是沒有絲毫要求。
畢竟，感情必須付出，而不是只想獲得；
分開是一種必然的考驗，
如果你們感情不夠穩固，只好認輸，
真愛是不會變成怨恨的。
兩人在談情說愛的時候，
最喜歡叫對方發誓，許下承諾我們為什麼要對方發誓，
就是因為我們不相信對方，我們根本不相信情人，
而這些山盟海誓又很不切實際：
海枯石爛、地老天荒，都不能改變我對你的愛!
明知道海不會枯、石不會爛、地不會老、天不會荒；
就算會，也活不到那時候。
許下諾言的時候千萬注意，不要許下可以實現的諾言，
最好是承諾做不到的事，
反正做不到的，隨便說說也不要緊，
請記住：”不可能實現的諾言最動人”
在愛情裡，說的是一套，做的是另一套；
講的人不相信，聽的人也不相信。
你呢？找到了第幾個？
茫茫人海中，你遇見了誰？誰又遇見了你
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Courage to tender
I Finally got the courage to tender my resignation letter on 2 September 2010 to my boss, I suppose to give her on 31 August and 1 September 2010, because this two days My boss never come, MC or Annual Leave? Not very sure.... lol... When I told my boss I would like to tender my resignation, my boss get a shock, and change face, ask me why.
I told her, I have a better offered and trying to adapt new working environment.
So she ask whether I serving one month or immediately, I told her, I serve one month, as my new company can wait for me one month.
My last day @ G & W will be on 22 September 2010, My first day @ ICPAS-SAA will be on 4 Oct 2010
Alot of feeling MAKES me confuse, Leaving this company makes me feel sad, memorable days no more. abit 舍不得！不知道我的最后一天，会伤心，难过，哭了吗？ 这里就像是我第二个家，在这四年两个月，学到很多东西，同事都对我不错，对我体贴。我有好多干妈！哈哈！
Linda Mummy, Candy Jie Jie, Janet Mummy, Doris Jie Jie, Mdm Heng mummy(Looks alike with my mum)..last but not least, My another 干吗-Ms Lim(My boss)-Contracts Manager.
Thank you for all this years so care and concern me. :）
我很开心遇到好的同事，Ｌｉｎｄａ Ｍｕｍｍｙ， when my mum passed away that period, she take care of me. Her husband cook for my share too(Lunch).... For many months, until I so paiseh, than I say no need, Her husband is a good cook, Yummy....
Thanks Linda Mummy and Linda husband(another daddy). Haha.. So fortunate.
我觉得我自己好幸运。 我永远不会忘记你们的！
俗语说的对，这是人生的过程，必经之路，喜怒哀乐，这也是成长的过程！
我也不能永远待在同一间公司， 我还年轻，应该学多一点东西，不要让自己做会后悔的事！
在新的公司，难免我会感到陌生，紧张与害怕，不知道习惯吗？同事会友善吗？老板会凶吗？我真的希望一切都顺顺利利，希望会有贵人相助。希望我会更坚强，更努力！加油瑷菱！
拜拜！
I told her, I have a better offered and trying to adapt new working environment.
So she ask whether I serving one month or immediately, I told her, I serve one month, as my new company can wait for me one month.
My last day @ G & W will be on 22 September 2010, My first day @ ICPAS-SAA will be on 4 Oct 2010
Alot of feeling MAKES me confuse, Leaving this company makes me feel sad, memorable days no more. abit 舍不得！不知道我的最后一天，会伤心，难过，哭了吗？ 这里就像是我第二个家，在这四年两个月，学到很多东西，同事都对我不错，对我体贴。我有好多干妈！哈哈！
Linda Mummy, Candy Jie Jie, Janet Mummy, Doris Jie Jie, Mdm Heng mummy(Looks alike with my mum)..last but not least, My another 干吗-Ms Lim(My boss)-Contracts Manager.
Thank you for all this years so care and concern me. :）
我很开心遇到好的同事，Ｌｉｎｄａ Ｍｕｍｍｙ， when my mum passed away that period, she take care of me. Her husband cook for my share too(Lunch).... For many months, until I so paiseh, than I say no need, Her husband is a good cook, Yummy....
Thanks Linda Mummy and Linda husband(another daddy). Haha.. So fortunate.
我觉得我自己好幸运。 我永远不会忘记你们的！
俗语说的对，这是人生的过程，必经之路，喜怒哀乐，这也是成长的过程！
我也不能永远待在同一间公司， 我还年轻，应该学多一点东西，不要让自己做会后悔的事！
在新的公司，难免我会感到陌生，紧张与害怕，不知道习惯吗？同事会友善吗？老板会凶吗？我真的希望一切都顺顺利利，希望会有贵人相助。希望我会更坚强，更努力！加油瑷菱！
拜拜！
Monday, August 23, 2010
李伟松- school of music open house 2010
I had went to Lee wei song school of music "Open House 2010" moved to Lavendar PICO building! I try on the studio recording, first time standing and sing in studio with recording engineer(Jerry), was so nervous, fa dou.... I sing 梁静如- 分手快乐！
Not very good, but this is F.O.C de... so can la.... haha! Fun and exciting, good experiences...
Not very good, but this is F.O.C de... so can la.... haha! Fun and exciting, good experiences...
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Busy with my stuff
I was busy doing things this period:
1) At work - need to clear alot of things and need to complete all design mix changes/updation for MG and SK plant. Already own Ms Candy very long liao. I think got 1 to 2 years ba.. haha! And alot of casting incoming material D/O. GWCP etc, SO need OT nowadays.
2) At home - need to look after my aunt kids for every Fri, Sat & Sun unless my aunt never work.
3)For own - busy planning about the dates of my visit to Studio Recording for my 1st CD album at lee wei song school of music & 2nd album at Top one KTV studio recording.
Actually is not cheap either, but I wanted to compare the real quality of studio recording - sound system effect!
I have to build more confident in myself!
Busy, busy, busy!
1) At work - need to clear alot of things and need to complete all design mix changes/updation for MG and SK plant. Already own Ms Candy very long liao. I think got 1 to 2 years ba.. haha! And alot of casting incoming material D/O. GWCP etc, SO need OT nowadays.
2) At home - need to look after my aunt kids for every Fri, Sat & Sun unless my aunt never work.
3)For own - busy planning about the dates of my visit to Studio Recording for my 1st CD album at lee wei song school of music & 2nd album at Top one KTV studio recording.
Actually is not cheap either, but I wanted to compare the real quality of studio recording - sound system effect!
I have to build more confident in myself!
Busy, busy, busy!
Happy for Mei Xin
I was so envy Mei Xin, In school, she already very popular among the girls and the guys..
Her outlook feature is good. The way she talks quite violent during school days.
Now totally 360 degree change liao... Become more feminine, so gentle le!
Congrats, her new album finally realease, I waited for so long. I have bought the CD, I like the 终于了解！ And the album cover- love it so much! Jia you mei xin!
Her effort had proved everyone her abilities!
期待下一张专辑，在戏里面的演出，在主持方面！加油！
我相信不久的将来，“美心”这个名字，不会陌生！
Her outlook feature is good. The way she talks quite violent during school days.
Now totally 360 degree change liao... Become more feminine, so gentle le!
Congrats, her new album finally realease, I waited for so long. I have bought the CD, I like the 终于了解！ And the album cover- love it so much! Jia you mei xin!
Her effort had proved everyone her abilities!
期待下一张专辑，在戏里面的演出，在主持方面！加油！
我相信不久的将来，“美心”这个名字，不会陌生！
Cousins Wedding's
Congrats Simon kor kor
Haha! SINCE young, I don't deny, in fact I admire him.... Because to me he was just too charming... I mean when I was in primary school.... long long time ago, that time i really was very very shy, timid, stick to mum.
Now he is married, I'm happy for him. Attend his wedding dinner this coming 3 October 2010 @ Fullerton Hotel! WOW - so rich... lol
His wife is so fortunate, so happy for them! And I looking forward to attend this dinner. : )
My blessing to u : 早生贵子， 永结同心，永遇爱合，甜甜蜜蜜，天天开心！
我的母亲也会为他们开心的！ 我的母亲也会陪我去他们的结婚晚宴！
Haha! SINCE young, I don't deny, in fact I admire him.... Because to me he was just too charming... I mean when I was in primary school.... long long time ago, that time i really was very very shy, timid, stick to mum.
Now he is married, I'm happy for him. Attend his wedding dinner this coming 3 October 2010 @ Fullerton Hotel! WOW - so rich... lol
His wife is so fortunate, so happy for them! And I looking forward to attend this dinner. : )
My blessing to u : 早生贵子， 永结同心，永遇爱合，甜甜蜜蜜，天天开心！
我的母亲也会为他们开心的！ 我的母亲也会陪我去他们的结婚晚宴！
Nobody will understand how I feel
Long time never write blog here....
Yesterday I really very hurt and sad. It happens when I ask my aunt kids(Ben)what does the black mole under the eyes area stands for?
My aunt reply says:"Bec stands for cry, she say they cry bec of tough life - hard work", than i reply to her,I also cry at times. she mentioned, I cried bec I only love myself more, not bec of hard work to earn for family than cry..
I heard le, heart so pain and hurt. If I love myself more than I would not look after the kids already, I really will Just DONT CARE. Nobody really understand and appreciate the things I do, is like is my job to look after?
Eventually, they will think that we 3 also stay at aunt hse to let them to take care of us. It makes them more burden with 6 kids...
I realise that, is not easy to stay at other's apartment... different character, different lifestyle.
But I really appreciate my aunt and uncle take good care of us for this 2 years plus... They treat us good, is just that sometimes when they talk, they are very straight forward and hurt people.... haha!
Is ok... is part of life.... I think I'm than the one is the most suffer person ba!
Hope after this period, my life be better!
I had already go thru the stages of losing my mum(passed away) suddenly knock out without any illness, losing love ones, staying aunt hse for 2 years- is not easy....
I believe in future nothing can defeat me...(in life)
Hope I can be stronger and stronger!
I always think that, what others say me, i dun mind.... Mouth is theirs, and i believe 吃亏就是赚！Is my aunt told me... I think is quite true.... In fact, can learn more things.
Nothing is fair, everything is unfair, somebody born to be pretty, somebody born to be not so outstanding like me! But I believe inner beauty is the most beauty...
Yesterday I really very hurt and sad. It happens when I ask my aunt kids(Ben)what does the black mole under the eyes area stands for?
My aunt reply says:"Bec stands for cry, she say they cry bec of tough life - hard work", than i reply to her,I also cry at times. she mentioned, I cried bec I only love myself more, not bec of hard work to earn for family than cry..
I heard le, heart so pain and hurt. If I love myself more than I would not look after the kids already, I really will Just DONT CARE. Nobody really understand and appreciate the things I do, is like is my job to look after?
Eventually, they will think that we 3 also stay at aunt hse to let them to take care of us. It makes them more burden with 6 kids...
I realise that, is not easy to stay at other's apartment... different character, different lifestyle.
But I really appreciate my aunt and uncle take good care of us for this 2 years plus... They treat us good, is just that sometimes when they talk, they are very straight forward and hurt people.... haha!
Is ok... is part of life.... I think I'm than the one is the most suffer person ba!
Hope after this period, my life be better!
I had already go thru the stages of losing my mum(passed away) suddenly knock out without any illness, losing love ones, staying aunt hse for 2 years- is not easy....
I believe in future nothing can defeat me...(in life)
Hope I can be stronger and stronger!
I always think that, what others say me, i dun mind.... Mouth is theirs, and i believe 吃亏就是赚！Is my aunt told me... I think is quite true.... In fact, can learn more things.
Nothing is fair, everything is unfair, somebody born to be pretty, somebody born to be not so outstanding like me! But I believe inner beauty is the most beauty...
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Recently My life...
My youngest brother had moved back to my own house on 3 July 2010 (Saturday) at around 6.30pm..... I still can't get useed to it without staying together with him..... Abit moody cum feel like crying! Hope everything goes well after he moved back home... And really hope we still can contact and meet out for a movie or what! Worry for my youngest brother the most..... now since he had move back home, my burden seems to be reduce abit.... but still worry for him as he is on the process to taking his motor licence. Surroundings his friends, all not good guy, some tatoos, some smoke. some do some illegal things.... scare my brother will get involved... Hope he will be mature and stable down his life. and start to find a part time job and earn some savings.... dont spend unnecessary stuff like going arcarde everyday.... let's hope he will improve...
As for myself, I had the urged wearing contact lenses. I happen to shop at lot one cck during starting of june 2010.. Saw the promotion of contact lenses, so i go and purchase the monthly lenses even thought i worry about how to put it on and take out.... So i purchased on the spot.....
But contact lenses still cannot take as this is my first time wearing so have to let the optical person to teach me how to put it on. . . .
So I drag and drag, coz still dun dare to try ma... until 28 June 2010 i dare to go into the shop and i trying to put it onto my eyes, for one hour still cannot... until my eyes very pain and red... She give me a piece of trial contact lenses to try at home. I 1 July 2010 (July) start to put it on at home frm 10.30pm till 11 plus, need about one hr to put in on and from 11.30 i try to take it out also need sometime.... don't know is it bec im scared or i not suit to wear contact?
Actually thinking of giving up wearing contact lenses but I can't everything scare scare scare ma, so i intend to request a few more pieces of trial piece so that i can try at home first. until i get used to it than I go back to the shop and put it on tha i can get my own lenses liao! Hope I can overcome it.. Jia You for myself!
Got to go work liao..! bYE
As for myself, I had the urged wearing contact lenses. I happen to shop at lot one cck during starting of june 2010.. Saw the promotion of contact lenses, so i go and purchase the monthly lenses even thought i worry about how to put it on and take out.... So i purchased on the spot.....
But contact lenses still cannot take as this is my first time wearing so have to let the optical person to teach me how to put it on. . . .
So I drag and drag, coz still dun dare to try ma... until 28 June 2010 i dare to go into the shop and i trying to put it onto my eyes, for one hour still cannot... until my eyes very pain and red... She give me a piece of trial contact lenses to try at home. I 1 July 2010 (July) start to put it on at home frm 10.30pm till 11 plus, need about one hr to put in on and from 11.30 i try to take it out also need sometime.... don't know is it bec im scared or i not suit to wear contact?
Actually thinking of giving up wearing contact lenses but I can't everything scare scare scare ma, so i intend to request a few more pieces of trial piece so that i can try at home first. until i get used to it than I go back to the shop and put it on tha i can get my own lenses liao! Hope I can overcome it.. Jia You for myself!
Got to go work liao..! bYE
Monday, June 28, 2010
Fed Up of my life!
My friend dun understand me at all. My father had already bring over the eldest kids to stay at my house. Stay for few days liao and going back to batam soon. My friend say is my fault not moving back that’s y he lonely than he bring over his kids. You dun wan to move back your fault u make ur father lonely so he bring back the kid, he wan somebody to look after him, what wrong he do. You have fault too, u move out so long did u pay him a visit ma, yes he did wrong in the past but he still ur father. You think he not lonely ma. You think he dun wan u all move back ma? He say dun complain much, he have the rights to give his kid a good life, since u dun wan him, he bring other side kid to live with him. He say my mum never say anything... y we kids make so much noise. I say please, we kids are the most suffer, if dad do wrong never apologies and never amend his way. I say can u guarantee that my mum never say anything ma, can u guarantee that if we move back home, he never bring over his batam kids and family ma. u dun understand how I feel. You stand at my father position to see things, did u stand at my side/brothers side to see things. Yes although things had pass. Can u guarantee he will not bring over the batam kid if we move back home? If u can guarantee than I move back today. My mum dun have sense of secure before, my mum suffer so much u know. You dun know. my dad only lonely for 2 years than he already cant take it.... my mum suffer for 20 to 30 years. How can u say. Are u going to think for my father than think for me? We children are the one tat is wu gu无辜, need to move to aunt house etc. Although aunt treat us good/well but afterall that is not our house. Bec of dad mistake he had done, just bec father temper. my dad never admit his fault/wrong, this is not a small problem. But if a person done wrong, he or she have to apologize and if he never amend his way than we kids suffer the most. Nobody know my worries I need a man that can truly understand me and need to know what am I worrying about. Get things right, is not we dun wan him. is he dun wan us. If he wan us, he will apologies for what he had done and will not chase us out of the house and dun give my 2 brothers expenses for 6 months that we need to go to family court to seek for the expenses for my 2 brothers and he will not change the lock at home. Can u guarantee we are safe staying at home? He do things never spare a thought for us, wan to bring them back than bring. Now we had no mother, also like no father even father still alive, my family become so complicated – Thanks to dad! You know what, u know nothing, u just know that what past is past but u got think same things will happen ma? Haiz.... Why am i so unlucky for everything I had ...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
My Worries.......My Stress...
Few days ago, my youngest brother told me he wanted to move back own house to stay.... Me and my other brother was not shocked at all, bec on and off he mentioned that.
He told me he tell my aunt straight away that he wanted to move back home this few days, I ask him not to tell aunt first. As me and brother-JH was still discussing about moving back home too. My youngest brother told me, he want to move back own house because he dun wan people to say him, he just want the freedom even right or wrong, he dont wan to care.... same character as father... This brother really hard to teach, as we 3 stay at aunt house already 2 years liao.
He already make US worry alot...... he did not obidient, sometimes when holiday period he use computer till morning 5am, 6am, the worst is he off computer at morning 6.30am, he go lay on bed, he told me he cant get to sleep, than after i go to work at 7.30am, he wake up again to on his laptop again... continue play until 8.30am he went to see a doctor as he injured himself at the work place(2nd day of work）， but the clicnic beside my aunt blk are closed. So he went back home to play, he play until 10 plus to 11 than go fajar shopping center to see doctor..... I pay for the medical expenses. After back from seeing a doctor, he continue to play games till midnight 2 or 3am, scary, overbroad, as my uncle n aunt set home rule, before 12am must off computer liao. My brother dont wan to care, than my uncle go and complain to my aunt, my aunt come and tell me, i also stress. I tell my brother sleep early, he say shut up and ask me go sleep. Hard to teach, rebellent child. dont know when than he grown up and maybe when i passed away than he will grown up ba... sometimes my heartbeat fast and sometimes i realise hard to breathe.... dont know what happen to me! Too much stress... I need to take up responsibilities.... Every friday, saturday and sunday my aunt working, my uncle go bet horse, so i had to look after their 3 kids, the eldest already sec 1, 2nd one is primary 6 and the youngest primary 2. Sometimes is hard for them to listen to me, I got to ask them bathe, after i buy back lunch for them to eat, i ask them to eat, they told me not hungry, they say later, so i let them eat later, than my uncle called and ask them eat already or not, i told him that they say not hungry, so he sounds angry, ask me to give them eat. Haiz.... Like i never ask them eat like that....and i had to make sure they bathe, than i can wash the clothes, i need to hang the clothes and fold the clothes.... sometimes need to sweep and mop the floor, sometimes is really stress. Everything happens after my mum passed away... haiz... Im tired too, what i trying to say is I need to work from Mon to Saturday, weekdays and weekends sometimes need ot also.. very tiring le... just hope weekends can rest well or do own things... but i really dont have enough time to relax, to do the things that i wanted to do, or is it my life is like that. destiny ar?
Many people say that 相见容易，相处难！This words sounds true, as every people have different lifestyle.... habits also different.. My aunt and uncle treat us good.... i know that we 3 stay at aunt house for 2 years, my uncle and aunt burden increase... So now i feel bad, sometimes they because of us quarrel... actualli i dun mind my brother use computer after 12am, is their home rule... and i know that my brother sure will not obey long de... so he move back home might not be a bad things, i n my other brother intend to move back home too..... Because we 3 麻烦阿姨和姨丈了！Is time to grown up and find own things to do! Afterall they can be one happy family again! I dun wish or dont hope because of us, affect aunt n uncle relationships, not good wor! Just hope that if me n my brother-JH intend to move back, nothing happen to us, and my 2 aunts and uncle will not blame us and still in good terms! Bec afterall stay at own hse is better.... not mean comfortable, is just that no need stress to how and what to say to uncle or aunt..... as im not good in talking, sometimes will lead misunderstanding. I dun wan that to happened.. I know even we moved back, i also can't control JK muCH.. But that's the only choice!
I need advise from you guys, Thanks! What I should do?
He told me he tell my aunt straight away that he wanted to move back home this few days, I ask him not to tell aunt first. As me and brother-JH was still discussing about moving back home too. My youngest brother told me, he want to move back own house because he dun wan people to say him, he just want the freedom even right or wrong, he dont wan to care.... same character as father... This brother really hard to teach, as we 3 stay at aunt house already 2 years liao.
He already make US worry alot...... he did not obidient, sometimes when holiday period he use computer till morning 5am, 6am, the worst is he off computer at morning 6.30am, he go lay on bed, he told me he cant get to sleep, than after i go to work at 7.30am, he wake up again to on his laptop again... continue play until 8.30am he went to see a doctor as he injured himself at the work place(2nd day of work）， but the clicnic beside my aunt blk are closed. So he went back home to play, he play until 10 plus to 11 than go fajar shopping center to see doctor..... I pay for the medical expenses. After back from seeing a doctor, he continue to play games till midnight 2 or 3am, scary, overbroad, as my uncle n aunt set home rule, before 12am must off computer liao. My brother dont wan to care, than my uncle go and complain to my aunt, my aunt come and tell me, i also stress. I tell my brother sleep early, he say shut up and ask me go sleep. Hard to teach, rebellent child. dont know when than he grown up and maybe when i passed away than he will grown up ba... sometimes my heartbeat fast and sometimes i realise hard to breathe.... dont know what happen to me! Too much stress... I need to take up responsibilities.... Every friday, saturday and sunday my aunt working, my uncle go bet horse, so i had to look after their 3 kids, the eldest already sec 1, 2nd one is primary 6 and the youngest primary 2. Sometimes is hard for them to listen to me, I got to ask them bathe, after i buy back lunch for them to eat, i ask them to eat, they told me not hungry, they say later, so i let them eat later, than my uncle called and ask them eat already or not, i told him that they say not hungry, so he sounds angry, ask me to give them eat. Haiz.... Like i never ask them eat like that....and i had to make sure they bathe, than i can wash the clothes, i need to hang the clothes and fold the clothes.... sometimes need to sweep and mop the floor, sometimes is really stress. Everything happens after my mum passed away... haiz... Im tired too, what i trying to say is I need to work from Mon to Saturday, weekdays and weekends sometimes need ot also.. very tiring le... just hope weekends can rest well or do own things... but i really dont have enough time to relax, to do the things that i wanted to do, or is it my life is like that. destiny ar?
Many people say that 相见容易，相处难！This words sounds true, as every people have different lifestyle.... habits also different.. My aunt and uncle treat us good.... i know that we 3 stay at aunt house for 2 years, my uncle and aunt burden increase... So now i feel bad, sometimes they because of us quarrel... actualli i dun mind my brother use computer after 12am, is their home rule... and i know that my brother sure will not obey long de... so he move back home might not be a bad things, i n my other brother intend to move back home too..... Because we 3 麻烦阿姨和姨丈了！Is time to grown up and find own things to do! Afterall they can be one happy family again! I dun wish or dont hope because of us, affect aunt n uncle relationships, not good wor! Just hope that if me n my brother-JH intend to move back, nothing happen to us, and my 2 aunts and uncle will not blame us and still in good terms! Bec afterall stay at own hse is better.... not mean comfortable, is just that no need stress to how and what to say to uncle or aunt..... as im not good in talking, sometimes will lead misunderstanding. I dun wan that to happened.. I know even we moved back, i also can't control JK muCH.. But that's the only choice!
I need advise from you guys, Thanks! What I should do?
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Work status & Environment
About My Work Status/Working Environment
After my graduate from higher Ntiec (Clementi ITE) in business administration during May 2006.
I started to look for office jobs, I had try to find many agents like Adecco, Jobstreet etc ..... gone for few interviews....... due to first office job interview, will feel very tense at times... Finally, went to this company at G&W Ready-mix P L for interview, my dad drove me to interview, coincident that was my dad previous company working as a cement truck driver. So when I reach there, I dare not go in, afterthat the receptionist(Doris) come out and talk fiercely says: "Why you stand outside, come in" ...she talks fierce, when i am waiting for interview at the sofa, nobody notice me to come for interview, as I waited 3 to 4 hours even there was no other interviwee. Pauline from HR given me the application form to fill up.... after few hours later....... my current boss which is Ms Lim interviewed me, at first i thought she is the coffee auntie...... but it was actually my boss. bec her first impression to me is like a t-shirt and a 3/4 pants ..... sounds like go market buy vegetable....... Lol...... Well, after the interview, she immediate ask me to start work on friday which is 14/07/2006....
Oh My god, my nightmare begins........... I'm working in Contracts dept as admin assistant.... my colleagues got candy (works more than 15 years), janet and mei ling... All the while is candy and mei ling teach me....... but candy tell me very complicated steps where i find ita mess..... this coming july 2010, is 4 years in G&W le.... I found out that actually alot of things is so simple and short but she teach me a long long steps which makes me blur.
Haiz, alot of things happened.... sometimes been acused by boss and candy that i key wrongly, but actually is themself key wrongly..... is really tough to work here, as alot of politics... and stressed comes by even i'm printing a piece of paper to attached in my daily field report.. I also have to write down print on which date/day at wat time
After my graduate from higher Ntiec (Clementi ITE) in business administration during May 2006.
I started to look for office jobs, I had try to find many agents like Adecco, Jobstreet etc ..... gone for few interviews....... due to first office job interview, will feel very tense at times... Finally, went to this company at G&W Ready-mix P L for interview, my dad drove me to interview, coincident that was my dad previous company working as a cement truck driver. So when I reach there, I dare not go in, afterthat the receptionist(Doris) come out and talk fiercely says: "Why you stand outside, come in" ...she talks fierce, when i am waiting for interview at the sofa, nobody notice me to come for interview, as I waited 3 to 4 hours even there was no other interviwee. Pauline from HR given me the application form to fill up.... after few hours later....... my current boss which is Ms Lim interviewed me, at first i thought she is the coffee auntie...... but it was actually my boss. bec her first impression to me is like a t-shirt and a 3/4 pants ..... sounds like go market buy vegetable....... Lol...... Well, after the interview, she immediate ask me to start work on friday which is 14/07/2006....
Oh My god, my nightmare begins........... I'm working in Contracts dept as admin assistant.... my colleagues got candy (works more than 15 years), janet and mei ling... All the while is candy and mei ling teach me....... but candy tell me very complicated steps where i find ita mess..... this coming july 2010, is 4 years in G&W le.... I found out that actually alot of things is so simple and short but she teach me a long long steps which makes me blur.
Haiz, alot of things happened.... sometimes been acused by boss and candy that i key wrongly, but actually is themself key wrongly..... is really tough to work here, as alot of politics... and stressed comes by even i'm printing a piece of paper to attached in my daily field report.. I also have to write down print on which date/day at wat time
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Wedding grown
WOW! So pretty....... I think the most most happiness
period is wearing a beautiful wedding grown with a good hubby ba!
老公就要找这样的
> 老公就要找这样的！>
> (1)>
> *有点害羞，但曾在分别的街头，大声说我爱你。
> *同我去庙里求签，轻轻捉住我的手一同跪下。
> *言而有信。
> *从来不迟到——我迟到他不生气。
> *拥抱很久、很紧——每次我起身时几乎是需要慢慢推开他。
> *睡得比我迟一点，醒来早一点。
> *朦胧醒来轻呼我的名字——没有呼错。
> *记得我的日期、鞋号、最怕的事。
> *我很怕虫子，见到虫子大声尖叫他不会笑我。
> *笑起来很像个坏蛋——其实不是。
> *不舒服时，请假带我去看医生，回来路上买冰淇淋做励。
> *开车绝不喝酒，让我系上安全带。
> (2)>
> * 帮我做家务，每天。边做边聊天。
> * 常常帮助别人，不为什幺。
> * 答应我﹕永远不。然后永远不。
> * 白煮蛋的黄可以给他吃。
> * 雨天散步，背我过积水，说﹕你还可以再胖一些啊。
> * 吵嘴时不会一走了之。
> * 错了会认错。
> * 我说笑话他笑。
> *逛街时我看中同一款式三种颜色的裙子，他说﹕都试一遍好了。
> * 试鞋时，他把我的卡通袜叠叠塞进上衣口袋。
> * 常常说，有我呢。
> (3)>
> * 指甲整齐干凈，喜欢我替他剪指甲。
> * 小孩子都喜欢他，常常在楼下玩一裤子泥回来。
> * 轻轻拧开我拧不开的汽水瓶。
> * 忙时给我订机票，让我带父母一起出去玩。
> * 告诉我——24小时随时打电话。
> * 告诉我——不要省钱。
> *去义务献血，回来笑嘻嘻掏出一块“福利饼干”给我尝。
> * 偷偷买一件两人合穿的雨衣放在车上。
> * 我喜欢赤脚，他在副驾驶位脚下铺一小块羊绒毯。
> * 与人争论听上去像是解释。
> (4)>
> * 教我滑旱冰，扶着我跑了快一千公里。
> * 从不上网聊天。
> * 他的秘书说帮他缝上脱落的纽扣，他说谢谢，不用。
> * 送我的花是盆花，替我浇水。
> * 和我下棋，允许我悔棋。
> * 他其实很早就对他的父母说起我……
> * 喜欢运动，带我去招待女宾俱乐部。
> * 穿十年前的牛仔裤仍然合身。
> * 他养了一条大狗，他的狗喜欢我。
> * 吵嘴时我要他还我送给他的维尼熊，他坚决不还。
> * 我不辨方向，他体内有指南针，说——跟牢我。
> * 吃我吃剩的东西。
> * 我失眠时他陪我聊天。
> (5)>
> * 比我高，我取不到的东西让他取。
> *重大的事情和我商量，比如明年的投资计划、周末野餐带不带烧烤架，晚饭吃大白菜还是小白菜。
> * 站在商店的洗手间外面等我。
> * 我感冒了，他还是会用我的杯子喝水。
> *和大人在一起像大人，和孩子在一起像孩子。
> (6)>
> * 喜欢我，从未犹豫，从不和别的女人比较。
> *必须非常合心的东西才会买——买时从不问价格，然后用很久很久。
> * 火车站接我，早到十分钟，带一盒蓝莓酸奶。
> * 我买给他的东西都合他心，不转送他人。
> * 身上的味道很好闻，但他自己不知道。
> * 逛街回家，一只眼看电视球赛一只眼看我试新衣。
> * 对女人有风度，也有距离。
> * 有了他，计算机罢工不必彻夜痛苦。
> * 很少叹气。
> * 真的可以随时找到他。
> *和他在一起不怕死——也不害怕活下去，活到很老…
> 这种才是电影中的所谓---绝种好男人，HOHO，下辈子去火星找哦> >
> (1)>
> *有点害羞，但曾在分别的街头，大声说我爱你。
> *同我去庙里求签，轻轻捉住我的手一同跪下。
> *言而有信。
> *从来不迟到——我迟到他不生气。
> *拥抱很久、很紧——每次我起身时几乎是需要慢慢推开他。
> *睡得比我迟一点，醒来早一点。
> *朦胧醒来轻呼我的名字——没有呼错。
> *记得我的日期、鞋号、最怕的事。
> *我很怕虫子，见到虫子大声尖叫他不会笑我。
> *笑起来很像个坏蛋——其实不是。
> *不舒服时，请假带我去看医生，回来路上买冰淇淋做励。
> *开车绝不喝酒，让我系上安全带。
> (2)>
> * 帮我做家务，每天。边做边聊天。
> * 常常帮助别人，不为什幺。
> * 答应我﹕永远不。然后永远不。
> * 白煮蛋的黄可以给他吃。
> * 雨天散步，背我过积水，说﹕你还可以再胖一些啊。
> * 吵嘴时不会一走了之。
> * 错了会认错。
> * 我说笑话他笑。
> *逛街时我看中同一款式三种颜色的裙子，他说﹕都试一遍好了。
> * 试鞋时，他把我的卡通袜叠叠塞进上衣口袋。
> * 常常说，有我呢。
> (3)>
> * 指甲整齐干凈，喜欢我替他剪指甲。
> * 小孩子都喜欢他，常常在楼下玩一裤子泥回来。
> * 轻轻拧开我拧不开的汽水瓶。
> * 忙时给我订机票，让我带父母一起出去玩。
> * 告诉我——24小时随时打电话。
> * 告诉我——不要省钱。
> *去义务献血，回来笑嘻嘻掏出一块“福利饼干”给我尝。
> * 偷偷买一件两人合穿的雨衣放在车上。
> * 我喜欢赤脚，他在副驾驶位脚下铺一小块羊绒毯。
> * 与人争论听上去像是解释。
> (4)>
> * 教我滑旱冰，扶着我跑了快一千公里。
> * 从不上网聊天。
> * 他的秘书说帮他缝上脱落的纽扣，他说谢谢，不用。
> * 送我的花是盆花，替我浇水。
> * 和我下棋，允许我悔棋。
> * 他其实很早就对他的父母说起我……
> * 喜欢运动，带我去招待女宾俱乐部。
> * 穿十年前的牛仔裤仍然合身。
> * 他养了一条大狗，他的狗喜欢我。
> * 吵嘴时我要他还我送给他的维尼熊，他坚决不还。
> * 我不辨方向，他体内有指南针，说——跟牢我。
> * 吃我吃剩的东西。
> * 我失眠时他陪我聊天。
> (5)>
> * 比我高，我取不到的东西让他取。
> *重大的事情和我商量，比如明年的投资计划、周末野餐带不带烧烤架，晚饭吃大白菜还是小白菜。
> * 站在商店的洗手间外面等我。
> * 我感冒了，他还是会用我的杯子喝水。
> *和大人在一起像大人，和孩子在一起像孩子。
> (6)>
> * 喜欢我，从未犹豫，从不和别的女人比较。
> *必须非常合心的东西才会买——买时从不问价格，然后用很久很久。
> * 火车站接我，早到十分钟，带一盒蓝莓酸奶。
> * 我买给他的东西都合他心，不转送他人。
> * 身上的味道很好闻，但他自己不知道。
> * 逛街回家，一只眼看电视球赛一只眼看我试新衣。
> * 对女人有风度，也有距离。
> * 有了他，计算机罢工不必彻夜痛苦。
> * 很少叹气。
> * 真的可以随时找到他。
> *和他在一起不怕死——也不害怕活下去，活到很老…
> 这种才是电影中的所谓---绝种好男人，HOHO，下辈子去火星找哦> >
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
S.H.E concert 17 April 2110
S.H.E concert : )
A fantastic concert.....first time i went to S.H.E concert...... I like this female trio for many years
since when I in secondary school ba! since 出道！ I love all of their songs. Finally I get to see their “爱而唯一”演唱会！ This 3 lady is so beautiful! So envy them....... can doll themself pretty! Their image are always good!
A fantastic concert.....first time i went to S.H.E concert...... I like this female trio for many years
since when I in secondary school ba! since 出道！ I love all of their songs. Finally I get to see their “爱而唯一”演唱会！ This 3 lady is so beautiful! So envy them....... can doll themself pretty! Their image are always good!
幸福
幸福是一个奇怪的东西,你看不见它,闻不到它,也听不到它.但是你可以感觉到它,幸福其实是无处不在的,时时刻刻环绕在自己的身边.有时,幸福是一个微笑;有时,幸福是一碗泡面;更多的时候,是和父母在一起. 父母在家时,总会觉得很烦,可一旦父母出门了,又觉得很孤单.我要告诉你,你已经开始想他们了.父母对我们好,更是一种幸福.在你生病时,只有他们在身边;在你伤心时,只有他们来安慰你;在你想买什么时 也是他们掏的钱......这些还不够吗?这些都是幸福,我们没权利让幸福增加,让要求加倍. 记得有一件事,让我感到无比的幸福.那次考试让我自己都头疼得要命,妈妈来鼓励我,说:"加油,妈妈相信你!"我听了后点点头.可是第二天的考试还是考砸了,妈妈说了我几句,坐在我旁边,一如既往的安慰我:"别灰心,还有下次." 幸福往往很脆弱,但只要你认为这是幸福,那么它就会坚不可破. 幸福需要自己创造,这就是幸福.
Friday, May 7, 2010
小小的爱
无论多么不值得一提的小事，都能留在心底一辈子，这就叫窝心。最窝心的爱不是轰轰烈烈，而是点点滴滴小小的爱触动内 心最柔软的角落。
感觉彼此的心跳。feeling each others heart beat.
在家和朋友狂欢一晚后一起收拾房间。Arranging the house together after a night spent with friends
讨论什么是对的而不是争辩谁是对的。deciding on what is correct instead of finding out who is right
洗发水进她眼睛的时候轻轻递给她毛巾。giving her the towel when her eyes are filled with shampoo
爱，就是…Love is...她在婚纱店前放慢脚步。the time when she slows down in front of the shops selling wedding dress
爱，就是…Love is...蜜月的时候两个人一起生病。the time when both of you get ill on your honeymoon
爱，就是…Love is...用早餐的香味叫醒赖床的他。waking him up with the smell of a wonderful breakfast on Sunday morning
爱，就是…Love is...为她拂去眼前的头发。pulling her hair away from her eyes
爱，就是…Love is...一杯饮料，两根吸管。two pipettes in a drink
爱，就是…Love is...看感人电影的时候递给她纸巾。passing her tissue papers if the film is too moving
爱，就是…Love is...红灯停车时偷偷的亲亲。stealing a kiss when you stop before at the red light
爱，就是…Love is...下雨天心里暖洋洋的大太阳。the sun shining bright in a rainy day 
爱，就是…Love is...两个人一起看电视。watching TV together
爱，就是…Love is...到处都能看到他的脸庞。seeing his face everywhereThursday, May 6, 2010
什么叫幸福呢？要怎样才会幸福？
什么叫幸福呢？要怎样才会幸福？
我本身觉得幸福是一件快乐的事， 幸福不是只说不做就可以。 幸福看起来很简但其实不是那样子的。
Happiness and unhappiness are opposite sides of a judgement about your situation. If you judge your situation as bad for you, that's unhappiness. If you judge a situation as good for you, that's happiness.
The experience of happiness is one of those general terms we use to say, "I feel good emotionally." People use different terms to describe what feels good for them. For someone it might be excitement, passion, exhilaration, fulfillment, freedom, feeling fully alive with inspiration and joy. For another it might be more peaceful, content, capable, hopeful, satisfied, and comfortable feeling. Whatever you call it, it just feels darn good.
Our natural state of being is to be happy. When you remove all the uncomfortable emotions we humans can experience (and they are numerous), you're left with happiness. So it's easiest to define happiness by what it is not.
The experience of happiness is one of those general terms we use to say, "I feel good emotionally." People use different terms to describe what feels good for them. For someone it might be excitement, passion, exhilaration, fulfillment, freedom, feeling fully alive with inspiration and joy. For another it might be more peaceful, content, capable, hopeful, satisfied, and comfortable feeling. Whatever you call it, it just feels darn good.
Our natural state of being is to be happy. When you remove all the uncomfortable emotions we humans can experience (and they are numerous), you're left with happiness. So it's easiest to define happiness by what it is not.
Happiness is what you feel when you're NOT feeling....
self doubt, depressed, hateful, fearful, worried, unsatisfied, bored, grief, shame, guilt, discontent, anxious, annoyed, angry, irritated, stressed, frustrated, upset, down, sad, envious or jealous.
self doubt, depressed, hateful, fearful, worried, unsatisfied, bored, grief, shame, guilt, discontent, anxious, annoyed, angry, irritated, stressed, frustrated, upset, down, sad, envious or jealous.
幸福就是爬到天台上看星星时，忽然发现有一颗硕大的流星直飞而来
幸福就是一起看烟花，在最绚烂的时候告诉彼此：爱情永不消散
幸福就是当戒指套入手指时，你不会害怕此生将被套牢，反而感觉很甜蜜
幸福就是当你老得一塌糊涂，什么地方也去不了的时候，身边还有个老头子陪你晒晒太阳，谈谈理想,最重要的是我们在一起
从最长远来看，生活似乎是即将开始，真正的生活。但是，生活的道路总是布满障碍，需要一步一步的经历挫折。需要完成一些工作，需要付出时间，需要付出金钱，这样生活才开始。
最后，我开始明白，这些障碍就是生活。这个想法帮助我认识到，没有一条道路是通向幸福的。这条路本身就是幸福。
笑会让人变得健康。所以就有了用笑进行治疗的方案。但是我认为，只有因为幸福而笑的时候人才会慢慢地健康起来。
让我们一起乘坐开往春天的公交车，浪漫很重要，环保也很重要。我们要创新，找到自己的方式。现在就出发吧，不管下一站到哪里，都能开辟幸福的花园，制造甜美故事的地方。
每天都要看看自己努力让自己变漂亮一点不要再做你眼中的小孩可是发现越来越依赖你的安全感
每天都要看看自己努力让自己变漂亮一点不要再做你眼中的小孩可是发现越来越依赖你的安全感
背靠背(月夜)好想跟你看一次日出晒一次月亮。。。 
望远镜-星愿偷偷地说。。。我爱你。。。
Finally exam finish on 14 April 2010
Hi,
It's been a long time since I blog..... due to busy with exam earlier on, finally exam finish on 14 April 2010..... Than after our exam, me, Da Jie-Shin foong, Er Jie-Judy, Jenny, Jacky & Chris, we 6 people after that went to International Sakura Buffet @ opp Plaza Singapura( haha, forget call what name le) for our dinner there, Is a thankful dinner for our group member Da Jie & Er Jie for putting alot of effort on our project and score well..... as Me, Jacky & Jenny never help much about the project..... 辛苦了-大姐&二姐。。。。 谢谢..Our dinner on that day overall quite ok, as i eat not much.. their food there, some are nice but some are not。Over 10 points. I only can give 6 points for the food. We do take pictures too, and chat alot..... Thanks for both jie jie, during this one and half year of duration for the course, i had join them as a group since one year 3 months ba! Thanks for them guiding us for the difficulties when we encounter during the process...of studying the module... during exam period, Da Jie very kind, she tutor me in accounting module as I understand what she is teaching than teacher teaches. I can say Da Jie , you should go work as a teaching job, suits u, if u never go teach, is really a waste lo... Da Jie & Er Jie really talented.... They managed their time very well... as they have their own family to take care of and still be able to get good results plus having time to do the project done before deadline... So envy them and 佩服them.....
Da jie still got time to see comics and watch korean drama, powerful leh... hehe! 大姐&二姐your should consider take up degree courses as your really are smart and intelligient women....
It's been a long time since I blog..... due to busy with exam earlier on, finally exam finish on 14 April 2010..... Than after our exam, me, Da Jie-Shin foong, Er Jie-Judy, Jenny, Jacky & Chris, we 6 people after that went to International Sakura Buffet @ opp Plaza Singapura( haha, forget call what name le) for our dinner there, Is a thankful dinner for our group member Da Jie & Er Jie for putting alot of effort on our project and score well..... as Me, Jacky & Jenny never help much about the project..... 辛苦了-大姐&二姐。。。。 谢谢..Our dinner on that day overall quite ok, as i eat not much.. their food there, some are nice but some are not。Over 10 points. I only can give 6 points for the food. We do take pictures too, and chat alot..... Thanks for both jie jie, during this one and half year of duration for the course, i had join them as a group since one year 3 months ba! Thanks for them guiding us for the difficulties when we encounter during the process...of studying the module... during exam period, Da Jie very kind, she tutor me in accounting module as I understand what she is teaching than teacher teaches. I can say Da Jie , you should go work as a teaching job, suits u, if u never go teach, is really a waste lo... Da Jie & Er Jie really talented.... They managed their time very well... as they have their own family to take care of and still be able to get good results plus having time to do the project done before deadline... So envy them and 佩服them.....
Da jie still got time to see comics and watch korean drama, powerful leh... hehe! 大姐&二姐your should consider take up degree courses as your really are smart and intelligient women....
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
D & D Dinner @ Hilton Hotel on 09 Jan 2010(Sat)
D & D 2010 @ G & W Readymix cum Koh Bros
As Hilton Hotel is a five stars Hotel, Well, I can say is very grand ballroom. Not bad. Out of 10 I will give 8 for the environment but the food there, not nice! I eat very little that day , every dish i eat one bite each for every all the dishes!
The Emcee was quite funny, when he mentioned to ask every group(4 colors) each of girl in each group up stage to sing XIAO WEI. Than my table colleagues, pointing fingers at me, because they know that I always went to sing @ KBOX but frankly speaking, XIAO wei in KBOx I never sing before! So that day I don't know what happened to me! I just without any preparation, I just went up stage! But so surprise that i did not even afraid of it! I still got the feeling that Im going to be singer soon! Haha! But I got 满足感！At least from the very beginning I was very timid and shy, after my mum passed away. I started to be more daring , can say I really change alot, point 10, I give myself 7! Now i lack of confidence so the other 3 point I need to improve for that! Jia you lo : p
The photos I need to gather first than I will upload at my blog! Thanks!
As Hilton Hotel is a five stars Hotel, Well, I can say is very grand ballroom. Not bad. Out of 10 I will give 8 for the environment but the food there, not nice! I eat very little that day , every dish i eat one bite each for every all the dishes!
The Emcee was quite funny, when he mentioned to ask every group(4 colors) each of girl in each group up stage to sing XIAO WEI. Than my table colleagues, pointing fingers at me, because they know that I always went to sing @ KBOX but frankly speaking, XIAO wei in KBOx I never sing before! So that day I don't know what happened to me! I just without any preparation, I just went up stage! But so surprise that i did not even afraid of it! I still got the feeling that Im going to be singer soon! Haha! But I got 满足感！At least from the very beginning I was very timid and shy, after my mum passed away. I started to be more daring , can say I really change alot, point 10, I give myself 7! Now i lack of confidence so the other 3 point I need to improve for that! Jia you lo : p
The photos I need to gather first than I will upload at my blog! Thanks!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
CNY 2010 coming soon
After Christmas and Countdown for a New Year , Next will be Chinese New Year @ 14 Feb 2010(Happy Valentine's Day), I used to very fond of this day since when Im K1 or K2 coz of can buy new clothes, wear nice nice, listen to CNY songs., and mum help me to makeup. Also lest but not least go shopping with mum to buy CNY things like oranges, canned drink, packet drink, CNY cookies etc etc..... Is so meaningful. Than go to relative & friends house bai nian(拜年）can take hongbao... hehe! The CNY days with my family is very good, but now it turns to change everything! Mum not around le, everytime heard of CNY songs, think of mum badly lo! Feel like is so sudden as if just past few months ago but actualli mum passed away almost 2 years! Times flies but i can feel she is near us and everytime let us dream of her! But in real life had not see her for 2 years le.... I told myself She is Onli going for vacation, will be back soon! But sometimes tink of going vacation for 2 years is impossible..... but Im really need to see mum... ( I dont want to be too independent).... If a person too independent , she will realise that no love around her coz everything she will do her ownself ma! Im the type of girls that need lots lots of care and love, concern, patient. Thats Y previously Im so rely on my mum, everything i no need to worry. she will settle everything even after i eat le, the bowl also she wash! But now I regret for letting my mum so tire n stressful... If i know my mum secretely suffer because of my dad got other affairs at batam for so many years. I sure will help her to do most of the things. I will also share her burden de.... that time i will not just let my dad anyhow scold my mum le! sure will help my mum to voice out to dad le! MUM always very 伟大，SHE SUFFER SO MUCH AND yet can keep/hide it from us so long! If it was me, I really cant tolerate! Is true!
Got a song that describe about mum!
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝，投进妈妈的怀抱，幸福享不了
没有妈妈最苦恼，没妈的孩子像棵草，离开妈妈的怀抱，幸福哪里找
Ya, is true, Now i have that feeling le! : ( Miss you & Love you Lot's Mum )
Really hope mum will always by our side to blessed us! Let us feel mum always beside us
can ma? Very Missed Mum, Now I hope That me and my 2 brothers heart will be together, at least we 3 share our burden together! I hope my mum will be happy too, I hope mum will be be lonely at other world but most important must remember us! Others shall not bully my mum again! She should found a better guy that treat her good de! Wish mum happiness around her! And My grandmother also passed away le! My mum can find her own mother le! Hope they can find one another and take good care of each other!
While Im writing this blog, my tears dropped!
:'(
人生就是这样子，每个人都必须经过的过程。就是要面对父母的离异， 老婆老公的离异，兄弟姐妹的离异！所以要珍惜身边的人，要做到最好，不要到时候，后悔就来不及了。 因为人生短短几十年，所以做的东西要对自己觉得有意义的才去做！每个人都需要被爱或爱人，被关心的， 被尊敬的！面子虽然重要，但如果把想关心的话不说出来，那痛苦的是自己和爱你的人。
我觉得做错事就必须道歉，不管是父母，朋友，兄弟姐妹都好！如果道歉这么难的话，那当初为何要做错呢？ 如果一个人做错了，不道歉，那个人永远都享受不了天伦之乐！因为他觉得他永远是对的，不会得到别人的原谅！知错能改最重要！这样才是一个成功的人！
Got a song that describe about mum!
世上只有妈妈好， 有妈的孩子像个宝，投进妈妈的怀抱，幸福享不了
没有妈妈最苦恼，没妈的孩子像棵草，离开妈妈的怀抱，幸福哪里找
Ya, is true, Now i have that feeling le! : ( Miss you & Love you Lot's Mum )
Really hope mum will always by our side to blessed us! Let us feel mum always beside us
can ma? Very Missed Mum, Now I hope That me and my 2 brothers heart will be together, at least we 3 share our burden together! I hope my mum will be happy too, I hope mum will be be lonely at other world but most important must remember us! Others shall not bully my mum again! She should found a better guy that treat her good de! Wish mum happiness around her! And My grandmother also passed away le! My mum can find her own mother le! Hope they can find one another and take good care of each other!
While Im writing this blog, my tears dropped!
:'(
人生就是这样子，每个人都必须经过的过程。就是要面对父母的离异， 老婆老公的离异，兄弟姐妹的离异！所以要珍惜身边的人，要做到最好，不要到时候，后悔就来不及了。 因为人生短短几十年，所以做的东西要对自己觉得有意义的才去做！每个人都需要被爱或爱人，被关心的， 被尊敬的！面子虽然重要，但如果把想关心的话不说出来，那痛苦的是自己和爱你的人。
我觉得做错事就必须道歉，不管是父母，朋友，兄弟姐妹都好！如果道歉这么难的话，那当初为何要做错呢？ 如果一个人做错了，不道歉，那个人永远都享受不了天伦之乐！因为他觉得他永远是对的，不会得到别人的原谅！知错能改最重要！这样才是一个成功的人！
Sunday, January 3, 2010
妈妈，你还在吗？
昨天，我梦到我妈妈了！感觉很靠近但却很遥远！梦到有人欺负我们，然后就自然就想起妈妈，在梦里哭， 真的也在哭。喊着叫妈妈。 突然想起妈妈以前对我们的体贴，为我们做很多事，她为我们付出很多，担心我们，每天煮饭给我们吃! 好怀念妈妈煮的饭，菜。 她在背后承受的一切， 都根本不让我们知道, Because she thinks that we are still young and don't want us so small dont have a father. So she bear the pain herself and hide the truth from us! But every night when every one is sleeping, she can't get to sleep as state of depression. I sleep same bed with mum, sometimes midnight i wake up a few times and saw mum at the toilets crying and talking to her friend over the phone! That time i was really small and don't know what happened. I think I have neglect mum feelings le... That time was never bother much at hm. Im very regret, mum should tell us.... So that we can stand on mum side, and not anyone else to bully my mum. especially father and father side relative! Until now mum passed away le, they always side father, they don't even know how we 3 feel. Without a mum , is equal to without mum love, as father never give us that kind of love that mum will give! Guy will always not that caring ! 我真的好想念我的母亲！ 怎么办！ Why god have to treat us that way? Not fair! Mum shoudnt leave so early. She is only 47 Years old when she passed away! My 2 brothers nowadays better le.. at least they before 12am come back home! Hope they don't turn bad as if anything happened to them, I'm the one have more responsibity n i really cant take the blow! Im going to 崩溃！Seriously.... I feel sad, hurt, mood down almost everyday..... Because we really can't believe that our mum had passed away like that and dad betray us, he treat us and my mum that way.... I really hate dad, hate him for not faithful to mum.... Actualli before my mum dead, I always respect dad... sometimes also side my dad than mum not happy. As my dad got diabetics, I always very worry him, and the foods he take in, I sugesst him to eat wholemeal bread, and don't allow him to drink gas water..... buy guava for him to eat..... ... Until after my mum passed away, we found out the wolf of my dad tail COME OUT ...... I am very disappointed.. Mum passed away within 7 days.... he still go to batam to find that side people.... Is he heartless or what! He shoudnt do that, he is so selfish...... His ownself problem become 2 families problem, my dad side n my mum side relative!
He don't need my mum, but we need a mum! No one else can replace mum ! I hope mum at other world will not suffer anymore..... but most important is she had to remember us and always beside us! I wan to live happy but the fact is how to be happy when there are so many unfinish things to solve..... Is dad that chase us out, so we move out to aunt house to stay. His own fault than he keep nagged, plus until now he still wan face...... he should apologise to us... If he apologise and stop nagging at us and blame my aunt for mum death, than maybe we will consider move back.
Ya, but what about my younger bro? He got mention he die also dont wan move back! How!
Nobody will know how close me & my mum, that time i don't know how to express my feelings to her, even when her birthday, mother's day, the present i bought i also ask my youngest bro passed the present to mum! Coz I dare not say MUM, Happy birthday to u! or Happy Mothers Day. Now I realise how Mum is so important! I wanted to say that 妈妈，谢谢你无微不至的照顾我们，关心我们，爱我们，给我们的温暖！新年要到了，我又会开始想妈妈了！因为我最爱过新年， 可以买新衣，新鞋，很多新的，好多好吃的cookies ! Because whenever near chinese new year corner, I will go to shopping with mum to 买年货！I help her to carry! Ya, That feeling, that kind of feeling, IS it forever I would not have that kind of feeling? Sob?
I wanted to be strong but everytime I think of mum, my tears dropped automatically, tell me what to do , god.. I don't wan to forget mum, im afraid too long never see her, I will forget her, forget the moments we had together! I wanted to always put mum in my heart!
He don't need my mum, but we need a mum! No one else can replace mum ! I hope mum at other world will not suffer anymore..... but most important is she had to remember us and always beside us! I wan to live happy but the fact is how to be happy when there are so many unfinish things to solve..... Is dad that chase us out, so we move out to aunt house to stay. His own fault than he keep nagged, plus until now he still wan face...... he should apologise to us... If he apologise and stop nagging at us and blame my aunt for mum death, than maybe we will consider move back.
Ya, but what about my younger bro? He got mention he die also dont wan move back! How!
Nobody will know how close me & my mum, that time i don't know how to express my feelings to her, even when her birthday, mother's day, the present i bought i also ask my youngest bro passed the present to mum! Coz I dare not say MUM, Happy birthday to u! or Happy Mothers Day. Now I realise how Mum is so important! I wanted to say that 妈妈，谢谢你无微不至的照顾我们，关心我们，爱我们，给我们的温暖！新年要到了，我又会开始想妈妈了！因为我最爱过新年， 可以买新衣，新鞋，很多新的，好多好吃的cookies ! Because whenever near chinese new year corner, I will go to shopping with mum to 买年货！I help her to carry! Ya, That feeling, that kind of feeling, IS it forever I would not have that kind of feeling? Sob?
I wanted to be strong but everytime I think of mum, my tears dropped automatically, tell me what to do , god.. I don't wan to forget mum, im afraid too long never see her, I will forget her, forget the moments we had together! I wanted to always put mum in my heart!
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